Life is for the living. ^^
For quite a long time, I have not written anything worth the read. Not that I'm saying that this one would be. Well anyway, lately, I am in some sort in a state of hysteria. I feel that I am out of control.
I feel like that I am becoming responsive to all the things that I have not responded to before. They are all coming back. And I felt these sudden clashing blows in my chest, dragging me down and hitting me. They are these unresolved issues that I have tried to forget and to escape from. I thought I'm fine. Well, I am. Really. But they are likely to put me down like an impetus that I could not resist.
I dont know where they are coming from. But I know they are still there to attack me at any moment of my carelessness.
They are still there, unresolved. I know they will always be, not until I acquire the guts to face them. I am advancing in years but not in bravery. In all honesty, in that expanse, I am declining.
I am focused, clever and self-assured. But I am vulnerable.
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Impetus. /n/ a force that causes the motion of an object
to overcome resistance and maintain its velocity.
